Where Chun Been and why there are no updates

The eluesive arthor of ChunMeigui Productions has for a few months....has it been a few months? been missing.

here she is now waving sheepishly from behind a wall as she has a story to tell everyone that isn't exactly what they might be hoping for, but she hopes she will get understanding.

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Hey~!

first let me make it Known that I am not stopping writing any of ChunMeigui Production's stories, simply having to work on them when i have free time.

First starting with School having recently come to an end for the summer I was prepared to start working on OCBD and one amazing Orginal story that i was prepareing to rewrite the finished project and turn it into a instant classic that woman of my age (who have nothing to read except trashy romance novels and young adult teen heart throbs, seriously how akward is that) would love and reread time and time again (or so i hope haha).

But a week after school ended life kicked me in the face hard, My Grandmother who I live with and has raised me sense I was very young, was hospitalized. It was discovered that she had blood clots through out her whole body. she was recently released and during the time she was in the hosptial I spent most the time either in emotional termoil or trying to frantically make the house meet impossible standards my realtives were expecting.

When i say impossible standards, they really aren't impossible. but for me, who can't seem to grasp the concept of cleaning, and is very uncomfertable and nervous in a house that is to clean, it was hard. now I'm so afraid of the house being dirty I'm rarely sitting down expect late at night and while working two jobs and now a third unpaid job as actting in home nurse while grandmother recovers, I find my self in a contast state of anxiety and panic, from both trying to keep the house clean at the level my relatives swooped in a cleaned it (and terriblly insulting me in the process, weather i asked for the statements or not) and from being uncomfertable in my own home that I rarely ever want to stay there long enough to do anything creative.

With everything that's happening, the skill of writing is coming and going and sometimes i think that i've lost the ability all together. I've also learned more about myself and the state of my mind at the moment, and find my self increasingly looking forward to returning to counciling sessions where i'm trying to grasp who I am or who I was.

Most importantly, I feel like i'm Loosing your faith in me with all this trouble going on. I know that OCBD is only eight or so chapters and it's been up for a long time and should probably have more for it, but what am i to do. In my younger days it was so much easier to write from my heart, but now, as silly as it sounds, Logic is actually getting in the way more then it's helping me write. Did you know the other day i actually had the silly idea that, it didn't matter what situation you put sesshomaru in, he is and will always hate humans and hanyous because even in the story, he only just bairly budged. to truely write something that shows a realistic evolution of sesshomaru's heart, would need to expand over many books in his developement and if you want to do it with the least ammount of work, you would need to start at the end of Rumi's story for your beginning.

anyways, don't fear, I'm rewriteing Chapter 8 (chapter nine for some) and then continueing writting on where i left off in my documents on my computer.

also i should probably add, that i haven't not been able to access the website to give you this update in a while, because I received a Ad virus that blocked Wix from opening. of course seeing this update you now know i have fixed this problem.

now, that is all out, I should let you know, that Feral Red and OCBD are not the only sesshomaru fanfictions i've written. there are many, and each one is a spetacular tale all there own. But i've also written other stories for other manga and animes. Eventually all these stories will find there way here!

That is all for now, and keep checking back for more updates or blog posts, you can even shoot me an email, i'll try to respond asap and let you know where i'm at!

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