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- Chun Meigui
- Sep 1, 2015
- 2 min read
This is a fairly short blurb. I don't know when I will finish the next chapter. if at all. not at the moment.
The school semester started. That was to be expected, I can handle that. My x button doesn’t work anymore. That's not to bad, I don't think I have to many characters with that letter in their names.
No what's got me torn up, is my cat of ten years is dying, of something. We aren't totally sure what she is dying of or how much longer she has. We know the secondary cause of her illness, liver disease. We just can't afford to find out what the primary cause is. I'm sure after she dies they will be able to tell me. (and before I get hate mail, I can't afford the care even if I know what she's dieing of). I already spent a week feeding her through a tube, the very tube she decided to rip out early this morning preventing me from being able to give her food and water directly to her stomach, where her recovery could have been more possible. However even after doing all this, her check up at the vet showed, no improvement after a week. and the docter was frank with me, that She didn't think Amaya was going to make it, and any more care then that, would be beyond what I could pay. She said that if she was positive Amaya would pull through, she would have pushed me to make the payments in installments. but she wasn't so sure the Ten year old cat is going to make it. at this point, she is almost sure, that Amaya might have cancer. and. well. yea.
In the meantime, I'm emotionally shutting down, if only to figure out how to deal with the situation without trying to go back to counseling and depend on them as a crutch whenever life gets to much for me to handle.
This is Amaya.
Praying for a full recovery.
But, accepting and hoping for a quick and peaceful end.
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